No Man's Land
I have finally reached a stage where i should be aware of what lies ahead .... but well wat i jus see is a blank future!!! Am totally nonplussed!!!!!
After 3 years at NIT Warangal, i feel like an under acheiver. I dunno what exactly i have gained out of my stint ther... ofcourse i hav found a brand new peer group... a lot different from what i had during school days... And made some really really close peers(names or rather should i say name neednt be revealed) in who i could even confide in most of my darkest secrets.
Getting back to what i actually wanted to say. I feel my path leading to nowhere. I havent even done such work so that i could wonder whether all this work that i have done is worth the cause or not. I wish i can fast forward about ten years, to when all this aimless thoughts hopefully would be nothing but a distant memory.
I keep getting this unnerving feeling that i'll probably still be fed by my mom even when i manage to get a degree!!! How embarassing could that get?!! I hear people already asking for an advance at their jobs in the first month itself just because they do not want to feel the ignominy of asking their parents for cash to survive!!!This feeling that i haven't acheived my true potential is kind of killing me softly! Feeling completely crestfallen.Now i have decided to make sacrifices (dunno what kind though :P) if i know they'll lead me to higher calling.Its high time i make a difference to myself and realise what my true capabilites are.
Just happened to write my GRE examination a few days back and was sure of getting a 1400+ score. God knows wat was running through my head when i gave the exam... only managed a paltry total of 1300. it gave me the feeling that i am just jeopardized. It has now just stemmed my hopes of visiting the casinos in 2007! I m glad that i have finally faced a setback. This is now making me realise what i am actually worth. I happened to think too high of myself and also feel made people think the same about me.
But on the other hand i feel that greatness is my destiny! This reminds me of a latin phrase :
'Aequam memento rebus in arduis servare mentem' which translates into 'Remember when lifes path is steep to keep your mind even'!!! So am just gonna make sacrifices, keep my fingers crossed and make my way out of No Man's Land!
Anyways written enough crap now... hope to be able to do a victory dance at the end of my final year!!!
After 3 years at NIT Warangal, i feel like an under acheiver. I dunno what exactly i have gained out of my stint ther... ofcourse i hav found a brand new peer group... a lot different from what i had during school days... And made some really really close peers(names or rather should i say name neednt be revealed) in who i could even confide in most of my darkest secrets.
Getting back to what i actually wanted to say. I feel my path leading to nowhere. I havent even done such work so that i could wonder whether all this work that i have done is worth the cause or not. I wish i can fast forward about ten years, to when all this aimless thoughts hopefully would be nothing but a distant memory.
I keep getting this unnerving feeling that i'll probably still be fed by my mom even when i manage to get a degree!!! How embarassing could that get?!! I hear people already asking for an advance at their jobs in the first month itself just because they do not want to feel the ignominy of asking their parents for cash to survive!!!This feeling that i haven't acheived my true potential is kind of killing me softly! Feeling completely crestfallen.Now i have decided to make sacrifices (dunno what kind though :P) if i know they'll lead me to higher calling.Its high time i make a difference to myself and realise what my true capabilites are.
Just happened to write my GRE examination a few days back and was sure of getting a 1400+ score. God knows wat was running through my head when i gave the exam... only managed a paltry total of 1300. it gave me the feeling that i am just jeopardized. It has now just stemmed my hopes of visiting the casinos in 2007! I m glad that i have finally faced a setback. This is now making me realise what i am actually worth. I happened to think too high of myself and also feel made people think the same about me.
But on the other hand i feel that greatness is my destiny! This reminds me of a latin phrase :
'Aequam memento rebus in arduis servare mentem' which translates into 'Remember when lifes path is steep to keep your mind even'!!! So am just gonna make sacrifices, keep my fingers crossed and make my way out of No Man's Land!
Anyways written enough crap now... hope to be able to do a victory dance at the end of my final year!!!
posted by shitendra at 11:37 PM
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